[Chimamanda]

Thank you Stephanie, dying to the wrong things is one of the struggles. God help us.

This program is timely. Thank you Kingdom Concept ❤️❤️

[Emem-Ako]

True Chimamanda. May we not destroy the best for the wrong cause. Be blessed!

[Emem-Ako]

1. In King Saul’s life, we see a major SYMPTOM of FEAR OF PEOPLE amidst other symptoms such as insecurity, pride, disobedience, and pretending outward spirituality while hiding inner struggles. In 1 Samuel 15:7–14, Saul partially obeyed God but tried to justify his actions with religious excuses.
2. Personally I have a few times struggle most with seeking approval from my leaders and avoiding difficult truths because I felt as they would say that I could do better so I drown myself the much I can to bring the best ignoring the challenges and hurts I may have wanted to talk to God mostly about to deal with. Don’t we all just smile while we soak pillows at night!
3. A few times , I have used spiritual activities like praying, serving, or staying busy in church to avoid confronting fear, disappointment, or emotional pain. Emotional Healthy Spirituality teaches that true spiritual growth requires honesty before God, not just outward religious performance which I had to embrace, spoke about and gradually got my freedom. This also got me in a better place with people around me. Thank you for these sessions. These are eye opening times for me and I pray we never remain the same afterwards.

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[Esther]

Really inspiring 🔥

[Stephanie]

1. For King Saul, I see the pattern of “Doing for God instead of Being with God.” He thought God was going to be impressed with his sacrifices. However, what God wanted was obedience. If he spent more time with God, he would have discovered this.

2. I would say for me, the symptom I exhibit sometimes is, “Ignoring The Emotions of fear, sadness and pain.” As I have a tendency to internalize and surpress my emotions rarher than express them.

3. This One is tricky, still finding my way through to be able to differentiate when I’m moving in obedience and when my actions are motivated by selfish ambition.

Cause there is this idea/feeling that I struggle with. The idea and the feeling that I’ve wasted a lot of time and I need to catch up. I see so many people accomplishing so much around me and it seems I’ve not done anything for God.

So there is a very strong desire to fill up my time with dreams and activities I want to achieve for God, as per doing the work of ministry to ensure that I’m being productive. Cause sometimes I feel God is disappointed in me. And I feel as though I’m not bearing fruits with the amount of investments God has deposited into me.

[Esther]

Very true 💯

[Emem-Ako]

These are great perspectives you have put down and truly the feeling of not doing enough happens to us, However, we will keep showing up to be guided so to actualise our purpose. Thanks for sharing and be blessed!

[Esther]

1 Using God to run from God : We could see that Saul performed religious acts, like offering sacrifices, but his heart was not truly surrendered in obedience.

Denying the past’s impact on the present : Also, Saul’s insecurity and jealousy, especially toward David, seemed to come from deeper unresolved issues.

Spiritualizing away conflict : Instead of just confronting his disobedience and brokenness, he often justified himself.

Covering over weakness and failure : When he’s confronted by Samuel, Saul tried to defend himself rather than fully own his failure.

Judging the spiritual journeys of others: Saul became jealous and threatened by David instead of celebrating God’s work in David’s life.

In all, Saul had a spiritually active outlook bit in reality he struggled with emotional insecurity, fear, pride, and unresolved brokenness.

2. Personally, one symptom I can reflect on is ignoring emotions instead of dealing with them honestly before God.

Sometimes it can feel easier to keep moving, keep praying, keep serving, and act like everything is fine, while inwardly carrying stress, pain, sadness, disappointment, or frustration. So when these suppressed emotions erupt it then becomes a tornado 🤣, but I’m learning to know that God wants the entirety of me even with my weakness, emotional issues and these are best resolved when laid before God

3 Yes, sometimes I do, there are sometimes when it’s just easier to pray things through and ignore and just say God will handle than just honestly confront what I’m feeling or deal with the issue.

But with the lesson I’m learning not to avoid reality but bring my struggle to him so I can experience true healing rather than suppression.

[Stephanie]

Thank you for sharing Esther. Its really not easy dealing with our unpleasant emotions. Thankful for God’s light and wisdom to guide us through this season.🙏🏾

[Emem-Ako]

Indeed we ignore and suppress a lot Esther. The teaching helps us to open up for healing to take place so we can be our best. Thanks for sharing and God bless you.